If she only knew me...

Have you ever found yourself surrounded by a bunch of Jesus-lovin' women and think that every woman but you is just a sinless creation that God loves way more than He ever could you?

Or gone on a girlfriend get away with a replica of the woman described in Proverbs 31 in every way possible, down to planting vineyards from her earnings? And you return home feeling less of a woman because you can't even sew a button back on a blouse.






Have you gone to a women's conference and been sitting amongst your group of sisters in Christ and while listening to their clean cut testimonies you soon find yourself comparing your life to your friends? And on the outside you remain smiling, but on the inside, you're cringing and thinking, "If she only knew who I really was..."? And the sad part is, that it's not even the impression she is trying to make on you, but her strengths crush your weaknesses.




In the eyes of the world we are told through magazine covers what we're supposed to wear, weigh and want in life. We're bombarded with the worlds view of perfection and if we buy into it, we will be left feeling like a failure.




But some of us can pull off the perfect Christian girl look.
We can look like we have it all together, but behind the walls of our heart we are just a mess.
A mess that only Jesus can handle all the details of.




We can look like this to others around us...

But on the inside, we can feel like this...

This is Alivia's doll that Aaron's dog Kane got a hold of recently.

Before Kane found Barbie, she was perfect.

But after a little time alone with her, even her plastic little self couldn't stop this canine from destroying everything Ken loves about her.

Soon, she was left with no feet, hands and on the left side of her body, not even an arm.

She has chunks of her face taken out and bite marks on the side of her thighs.

In real life, if we let him, Satan will do the same thing with us.

He will take bites out of our self esteem, demolish our hope and chew up the belief that we can ever be usable by such a great God.

The thought life of God and Satan when it comes to us, is so different.

The thoughts of feeling less when compared to your sister in Christ is not coming from the Lord. Satan loves messing with us and will do so on every level possible.

To know how God thinks of us, it's so important to be in His Word daily.

We should be in His Word so deeply, that when Satan does try to take a bite out of us, he tastes nothing but Jesus!

Jesus wants to use our past for His glory.

So many of us believe or have believed He can't or won't; that our lives are too much of a mess for Him to clean up, but He tells us different.
He can use anyone and if willing, He will.

Nothing in our past or our present is unusable to God.

So today, if you compare yourself with others...don't.

Not today.

Truth of it is, she's probably thinking, "if she only knew me".

Allow God to use you right where you are and don't worry about what you look like to others.

Two of my favorite authors and women of God are

Lysa TerKeurst and Lisa Whittle.

Both have written life changing books.

Lysa's book, Becoming More than a Good Bible Study Girl

can be found here.

And Lisa's book, Behind Those Eyes

can be found here.

Both women to the naked eye, have it all together, but they will be the first to knock themselves off of any pedestal of perfection anyone tries perching them upon.

They are real women that love Jesus, who don't try to portray anything but Jesus in their lives.

If you have never visited them before, do so...you will be blessed.

On the right side of my blog, scroll down and you can see that we have done their books on the Yes to God studies before.

So, if you're looking for a great read to kick off your summer, one that will leave you closer to God when you finish the book, then grab one of these ladies books.

Have a great day and allow Jesus to shine through you and you're outside will be more beautiful than you can ever imagine.

A beauty so contagious that sooner than later, Mattell will just have to come out with a

Jesus-lovin' Barbie.