Thursday, May 6, 2010

Locked Out

Do you ever feel like you are just walking through this life on auto-pilot?
Like life has just gotten the best of you and you are so ready for the rapture to happen?

Sometimes I just go through the motions and on the outside look like the total Christian package, but on the inside Satan is sitting on the throne of my heart.
No, I have not converted to devil worship, but sometimes I just feel like I am so far from God that I am the poster child for Prodigals.

I am great at asking for people to pray for me...stand in my gap, intercede on my behalf, but sometimes I rely on the prayers of others instead of approaching the throne of grace and cry out to God myself.
I can send you some scripture reference to fit whatever need you have or give you hope for the crisis your heart may feel, but sometimes in my most desperate times my Bible never gets opened.

This morning my sister was at my parents home and was leaving to go to her house.
My parents provide foster care and have five kids under the age of 11 so she's been watching their kids and transporting the three oldest ones back and forth to school everyday.
On their front door they have a lock box with a code that holds a key to their house.
This morning, after taking the kids to school, she walked outside followed by the two toddlers.
She punched in the code to the lock box, removed the key, locked the front door, put the key back in the box and punched in the code again to lock it.
She then shut the screen door and as the three of them were walking to my Mom's SUV, she realized the keys to the truck were on the kitchen counter.
So she pulled out her cell phone and called our Dad and explained her situation to him asking him to come use his key to let her in the house.
He gently reminded her of the lock box.
The lock box she knows the code to that holds the key to let herself back in the house.

Michelle was just going through the motions, not thinking about stuff, just doing it.
She realized without the truck keys, she wasn't able to continue on her journey.
But instead of going to the lock box and obtaining the very thing that would get her moving, she called on someone else.

Oh, don't we do that with our Savior?
My neighbors niece Tiffany once said, "We need to run to the throne instead of the phone".
Or e-mail or text or arrange an emergency Starbucks girlfriend time.
So that means we just go to Jesus and not ever ask anyone to pray for us?
Nope, not what I meant at all.
We need to go to JESUS first then reach out and ask for prayer.
Hebrews 4:16
Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence,
that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.

We need to run to Him with all our needs, big and small, with our confidence put in Him and what He is capable of doing in our lives, for He is the only One that holds the key to our hearts.
He is the One that has the answer for our unanswered questions.
He is the One that we need to turn to in hope of rescuing us.
And He is the One that will take us by the hand on the journey of a lifetime when we feel like we can't go on.

Oh Lord, I promise one day I'll get this!
Just keep baring with me for I love You so much!


AnooCre8ion said...

What an open and honest post. On the other hand I am guilty of always wanting to go to the throne myself without ever asking for the help of a brother or a sister.

Thank God for the help of His Holy SPirit who gently prods our heart.

Thank you for posting this.


Paula ~ Princess Warrior Chick said...

Brilliant post my friend! One thing I have realised is that in times of struggle I tend to quench the Spirit and not let Him do what He needs to do for me. Yes, that means calling friends, emailing, ignoring the issue at hand, etc. xo

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Donna said...

Lelia, thank you for sharing your heart with us on this topic. I think we all struggle with this at times. When crisis come up in our lives, we tend to call or do anything other than go to our main source - Jesus. Thank you for the reminder that we need to fall in His arms first.

Blessings to you and your family!

Brenda said...

Just what I needed today. God is so good. Thanks for sharing what he laid on your heart.

Beautifuldreamer said...

Oh I know just what you mean. It's so much easier for me to encourage someone else to trust in the Lord, than to approach Him myself with my needs great and small.

I think part of this is not believing deep down that He will be as willing to hear my entries as those of others.

I wanted to say too that sometimes, while on auto pilot, rather than take my cares to Him I find myself thinking, I just have to endure, maybe Jesus will return very soon and I won't have to deal with this problem ever again.

Sigh. When will we learn? "Come to Me and I will give you rest."

Pamela (His maidservant) said...

My memory verse for this week fit here...My gof, Send forth your light and your truth to my lige, let them guide me, let them bring me to your Holy mountain, to the place where you dwell. ~Ps 43:3

Working on that in my own life...going to god and then to others.


Believing Him~Pamela

Wanda said...

Oh this is a lovely post. Yes sometimes it seems like I'm on auto pilot. And I love your niece statement about running to the throne rather than the phone.