Monday, October 6, 2008

He's Waiting

Thank you so much for all of your prayers, scriptures, sweet comments, e-mails, text messages and phone calls. We seem to be quite the "needy" family as of late! God couldn't have surrounded me with a better group of women at this time in my life though.

This weekend was full of emotions over the news that my teen daughter who just gave birth on April 9th is pregnant again.

I'm frustrated at her selfishness.
Why can my teen have babies with a guy that doesn't care about her or the baby she has now while there are couples out there praying with much desire for a little one of their own with no success?

I'm sad and mad all in the same breath.

I am furious with the bold role disobedience is playing in her life.

I don't know what she is thinking and get tired of trying to figure her out.

This is what I know in this moment of time.

There is no act of sin that my pregnant again teenage daughter can commit that will make her Savior turn His back on her. Nothing.

She may choose to let sin separate her from God and grieve His heart at the moment, but it does not make the love He has for her fade.

This morning I listened to my son Aaron's favorite song by Marvin Sapp called "Praise Him in Advance". These words really struck me:
I’ve had my share of ups and downs, times when there was no one around, God came and spoke these words to me, praise will confuse the enemy.

Praise will confuse the enemy.

The enemy expects for Gene and I to fight. Which we have.
He wants me to lash out at her. Which I did, but with much reserve.
He wants us to feel hopeless. I have felt that in the dark of the night.

The prince of Darkness has much hopeful expectation of defeat for all of us who have Jesus Christ in our life.

So what if we don't play by his rules?
What if instead we choose to praise?

What if we choose to praise the God that was not taken by surprise of what His lost daughter has done now.

What if instead of fighting, Gene and I hold hands and offer praise to Him?

What if we choose to praise God in advance for what He is going to do in our daughter's life?

WHAT IF we choose to confuse the enemy?

This song by John Waller really gave me an incredible picture of my daughter being embraced by her King again. I can't wait for that day! Her self esteem is low right now and she may feel like she is too far gone for Jesus to welcome her back, but any of us who have ever been in a pit knows this is a lie from the enemy. I pray that the grip Satan has on her thought life will be released and she will go running back into the open, waiting arms of Jesus Christ!
I praise Him in advance for the date that only God knows the exact time of her return to Him.

Thank you again for all of your love, support and prayers.
Please join me tomorrow for the YES to GOD Tuesday study of Lisa Whittle's amazing book, "Behind Those Eyes" and remember, if you haven't joined us, please get your book and do so.
We'd so enjoy your company!

God is good my friends.
This I know.

Love you,


Sita said...
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Sita said...

Yesterday as I was praying, the verse about the race marked out for us came to mind. I look at the cups we have each been given and realize that it was thoughtfully allowed (marked out) to us.

"So, God thought I could be trusted with this, huh?...Ok..right back at You, God...take it, teach me, glorify Yourself in me..for Your renown, I thank You for my cup..I really wish I did not have to drink this..this bitterness hurts as it cleans...but this sweetness of Your grace covers and heals...I praise You for there is none like You.."
He trusts you, Lelia.

Leebird said...

Confuse that jerky ol' devil!!! Praise so much it will make his horns fall off! Love, Lee

Kristen said...

I am praising Him for your faithfulness and your love for your daughter. I am praising Him for loving your daughter!

"There is no act of sin that my pregnant again teenage daughter can commit that will make her Savior turn His back on her. Nothing. " I love your words... it is something that speaks so strong to me and to all of us!

"And we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose." (Romans 8:28

God Bless you today and always.

Anonymous said...

Lelia, I would hazard a guess you have been, and are, confusing the devil. You are standing firm in Christ's love and are being guided by Him, and what's more, you are heaping praise on the One Who is Worthy, and glorifying Him - you are and will continue to be blessed by Him. He loves you to bits and pieces!!!!!

Paula (SweetPea) said...

Profound words, Lelia. You have such a resounding attitude. You are very right that satan is after each of us and he hopes or anticipates a certain reaction in our flesh. Oh but wait, if our spirit, or rather the Spirit of Jesus within us, reacts instead of our flesh...oh what reaction satan is left with. Oh what glory it will bring God. Oh what reassurance it will give us.

You are on the right course and with the right attitude. I'm guessing to you it might not feel that way in your quiet time and when you have your moments of reacting in the flesh.

I sure the "whys" have entered you mind at one time. Why me? Why her? Why now? Why him?

But we know even in this God shall prevail and He will make good out of evil, out of what satan meant for bad! He will work for the good in this situation, Alyssa, and all your family.

You have been in my thoughts and prayers all weekend.

I love you, sweet friend.

Christy said...

God is good Lelia. Praise Him.

Cindy said...

Oh Leila,

Fighting the enemy and Praising our Lord with you.

We have a beautiful granddaughter through similar circumstances. Continue to show Jesus' love to your daughter. We do not understand but we can reflect Jesus. Our hearts ache but God sends us peace through His Holy Spirit.

You will all get through this.

Blessings and Prayers,

Nancy Holte said...

Leila, I am so sorry to hear of this new struggle for your family. Not sorry that a blessed new life is on the way, but because of all your daughter has to walk through. I know how I've felt when my kids have messed up. It's just so painful. Keep holding onto Jesus. He is the provider of all our peace and strength. I will pray for your family.

Liz said...

When we are weak, HE is strong.
I see His strength in you as you praise Him in this struggle. Continue to confuse that pitifully ignorant enemy that we have as you praise the God who is sovereign and faithful!
Prayers and Peace for you my dear friend.
Love, Liz

Paula said...

Lelia, I love this!

"There is no act of sin that my pregnant again teenage daughter can commit that will make her Savior turn His back on her. Nothing.

She may choose to let sin separate her from God and grieve His heart at the moment, but it does not make the love He has for her fade."

The same applies for you as her mother. There is nothing that will make you turn your back on her, or make your love for her fade. Jesus is our example, so use that in guiding you with how to deal with this situation.

Thank you for the email today. You are in my thoughts and prayers, as you know. I just know that one day Alyssa is going to have THAT moment and it will be like BAM! And then she will realise that God just touched her heart and He's all she needs. And she will also be humbled by knowing that He never left her side. Be confident in that.

Love you, Paula :-)

Tami Boesiger said...

Oh, Lelia, I actually gasped when I read your post. I am so sorry, but so proud of you for pressing on in praise.

Your pain does not go unnoticed. He bottles your tears. He inhabits your praise.

Praying for you, my friend.

Sharon said...

Yes you are thinking the right way, Praise him with all your heart and all your mind.. Do not allow him to steal your Joy. Do not give in too stinkin thinkin.

I will be praying for you and your daughter.

Carol said...

Lelia, Praise Him, Praise HIm. I know when I was struggling with my anger and pain, and the evil one would whisper in my ears to hate my husband, don't trust him. I would shut him down, by Thanking God for my husband and praising Him for saving me from my own shame and for saving my husband.

I praise God for you and your family. Thank you Lord for the amazing testimony that you will bring of your love, goodness, grace, and mercy through this family. We know you have them in your arms, and will not let go. Give Gene and Lelia peace and strength. In Jesus precious name.

Connie said...

Lelia, Saying a prayer for you right now and praising God for a grandma like you to love this little one and for loving and praying your daughter back to HIM. I am joining in that prayer. Satan will NOT win this time! Love ya, Connie

Kristen Myers said...

Lelia, You are such an amazing person. You are not only willing to lead a Bible study on "Behind Those Eyes," but to live out online the very reality of the message. Thank you for letting God use you in such a powerful way, amidst life's storms.

Please know I am praying for your daughter and you.

valerie said...

I haven't talked to you in a while abd tonight I am playing catch up. I'm so glad I did. I will be lifting you and your family up in prayer.
Your posts always bless me. You know you can cry out to the Lord and He's fine with that. He knows your love for Alyssa and He knows you want the best for her life.
I'm thankful that you know God is going to work everything out for good and like Jeremiah 29:11 says...he has plans to prosper Alyssa and not to harm her....plans for her future.
I too have had the thoughts you mentioned....why some girls can continue getting pregnant and there are those we know who would love to have a baby and can't. It's so hard for us to understand. His ways are definitely not our ways. God knows though and He is in control.
Bless you and bless Gene. May God send peace & joy to your family.
Love you, Lelia! You're so special!

Tracy said...

It's been awhile since I've been by. (Sorry about that.) Wow, your plate is heaping full with challenges right now, isn't it? Your honesty and faithfulness in spite of "things" going on in your life, you are always an inspiration and encouragement to others. I want you to know you can count on my prayers for your family...especially Alyssa and Amiyah. Bless you, sweet one.

Take care.

Amy Wyatt said...

I'm so sorry you all are having to face this struggle again. You faith inspires me. I love that you are praising Him through this and confusing our enemy.
I'm praying for you guys.