Do you ever feel like one in a million in the Kingdom of God?
Like He isn't paying attention to you at all?
A few years ago, Gene was really struggling, unbeknown to me. He's a man of incredible faith and loves the Lord with all of his heart, soul, mind, strength and even bad back. But after being in months of constant pain and continuous back surgeries, he didn't want to pray anymore about his back. He felt like he was just bothering God and he even stopped reading his Bible.
Working a night job and a day job and having very busy mornings, I failed to notice that he was watching TV instead of reading his Bible first thing after waking like he had forever. I didn't notice how down he was due to me being in my own world.
But God did.
One Sunday morning we were getting ready for church and nothing was going right. It was just one of those mornings.We had our granddaughter Amiyah with us and when we arrived at church I realized we had no diapers. When I told Gene and Alivia to go ahead inside and I'd be back after making a trip to the store for diapers, Gene threw his hands up and said, "Let's just go home". I had noticed at home that he was in a different kind of mood, but him throwing his hands up was out of his character. The urge to go into church was strongly on me, so I decided to see if the nursery had diapers instead of leaving. So into the house of God we walked, frustrated husband in tow.
I sent Alivia to children's church and Gene sat in the back of the sanctuary waiting for me. I went to the nursery and wouldn't you know, the package of diapers on top of the changing table belonging to the church just happened to be Amiyah's size? I changed her quickly and left her in good hands. As I was walking toward the sanctuary I looked up at the big screen TV in the lobby as I heard a familiar voice ask if my husband was present.
I stopped and watched as Linda, a woman in the church stood at the microphone. She was about to sing a song, but before she did she felt the Lord wanted her to give Gene a message. Keep in mind, nobody but God knew what Gene was going through inside.
"Gene Chealey...I just wanted to encourage you.
You've been on my heart a lot lately.
I know you're a Dallas Cowboy fan and so am I, but I just want to tell you I feel like the Lord is speaking to me to tell you not to give up.
To keep on keeping on.
Don't give up hope.
Many are they that say of my soul there is no help for him in God, but thou oh Lord are my glory and the lifter up of my head. (Psalm 3:2-3).
And He wants you to know...He doesn't want you to give up.
Keep running the race man and don't give up.
Don't give up."
I stood there smiling thinking, how sweet when Gene came walking out of the sanctuary with tears covering his face and neck and a bewildered look on his face. He just fell into my arms and began to tell me of how he had been struggling. How he didn't even want to come to church that morning. How he hadn't opened his Bible in over a week.
That morning God let Gene know.
I see you.
I see the struggle you're having.
I see depression trying to wrap itself around you.
I see the pain you're in 24 hours of your day.
Do. Not. Give. Up.
Let Me lift your head.
Because I see you Gene Chealey.
And I love you so much that I'm going to give this woman a message straight from my heart to yours since I can't give it from a closed Bible.
I see you my son.
That moment changed the course of Gene's focus that morning and got him back in God's Word. Gave him a deeper love for his Savior. Took his level of belief to a height Gene had never known before.
WHATEVER you are going through that makes you feel forgotten by your Savior, know and believe that God sees you. He loves you and no matter what circumstance you face, He wants you to keep seeking Him. Keep walking with Him through it.
Gene would be the first to tell you He is worth anything He allows you to endure.
If anyone knows how to get a wpm file onto blogger, let me know. I have the clip of God's message through Linda, I just don't know how to get it on here & we'd love to share it with you.