Welcome to the Yes to God Tuesday study of Lysa TerKeurst's book, "What Happens When Women Walk in Faith".
Oh what sweet timing Jesus has. In reading the introduction, chapter 1 and doing the study at the end of the chapter I feel such encouragement pour down straight from the throne that seats the King of my life.
Thank you again for your outpouring of love and prayers for my girl and our family. So tough, but you know what? I wouldn't trade this for anything else. I mean that because of where it is taking not only me, but my husband, my sister, my parents and my other kids in our personal relationship with Jesus Christ.
These last 6 days I've experienced a level of intimacy with God that I've never had before and I thought we were pretty close before all of this. I was wrong. Over the last week I have had numerous times of just losing it with Him. Losing my desire to be in control. Losing my fear of what's going to happen with my girl. At 3am on my knees sobbing to Him and yet praising Him at the same time, I have become lost in Him. I have never felt this close to Him and I can honestly say that even though the absence of my daughter hurts like crazy I would rather have her absent in my life than Jesus.
This is more than just typing out words on my blog that make people cry or feel touched. I am now having to walk out how I really feel about my Savior. Whether my daughter returns home or not doesn't matter if through this you have not seen Jesus loud and clear in my life. Please hear my heart here, I want her home, BUT I want God's will for her life and mine. I want you to see the greatness of God in this hardship.
I have faith that He's gonna get her and when He does I will be there praising Him like I am now. For Him to capture her heart is worth any bad decision she is making now. Her heart is already softening. Last night she left Jarrel's house and stayed with her friend Amy who is also a teen mom. I know she is safe and she text my sister at 11pm last night asking for a ride to come home. Unfortunately my sister didn't have her phone and she didn't answer by the time she returned her text, but her heart is slowly melting into His hands and I am loving every minute of this pain because I KNOW God is just getting started. I saw her yesterday and got to hug her, kiss her and tell her how much I love her. I told her how you all are praying for her. I even told her when she is sleeping, my blog friends in Australia are awake and praying over her. She knows, she just needs to be broken. And so I wait in faith that God is not going to forsake her.
CHAPTER 1: The Map
Any words in blue is a quote from the book.
A week and a half ago I was in North Carolina attending the She Speaks conference for writers and speakers. Over 500 women there because God has placed in them a desire to serve Him. For me it was a huge step of obedience in pursuing the desires within my heart for writing. I loved how Lysa shared how she too had attended a conference and left "feeling excited, only to be hit with a shocking dose of reality back home."
Friday night at the conference Lysa spoke of this very thing. She encouraged us to "not resent the task of your everyday life because it is preparing you for ministry."
In the book she tells us how God does not call the qualified, but He qualifies the called.
What I am going through right now He is qualifying me for the calling He has put on my life. I have to trust He knows what He is doing.
Wherever we are in our life God wants to use us and if we are having an obedient heart to Him then we are in ministry. Right now my ministry is my blog. What I thought was just for fun has turned out to be an incredible experience of drawing me closer to Him. He's so sly isn't He? I'm so glad He didn't see my intentions for my blog through my eyes.
His vision is so much better!
At the end of the chapter Lysa asks a very important question from God.
WILL YOU HONOR ME?
Will you honor Me Lelia even though you are feeling helpless about your daughter?
Will you honor Me Amy when the relationship with your sister is not where you want it to be?
Will you honor Me Pam when I allow hardship to come your way as you are stepping out in ministry with your husband?
Will you honor Me Kelley when you feel frustrated with your teenager's choices?
Will you honor Me Lysa as you watch your mother physically and spiritually slipping away?
Will you honor Me_______ (say your name) with the current circumstances in your life?
This journey we're on ladies has to be all about Him. What is the dream God has birthed in your heart? Lysa tells us when a woman begins to walk in faith toward God, He will give the dream.
I loved the study at the end of the chapter. I have the verses Hebrews 10:35-36 written on a note card so I can memorize them. Please leave a comment of what God showed you in this chapter and if you have more to share with us please leave a link to your blog.
Let's walk this faith journey together!
Meet back here next Tuesday ready to discuss chapter 2 and the study!