The other night I was at Family Christian bookstore picking up my copy of Lysa TerKeurst's book Made to Crave. The book study I'll be leading at a coffee shop in Lincoln starts Monday, January 17th and also here on my blog starting Tuesday, the 18th. Can't wait!! If you want to join me, get your book & do so!
Anyway, I received a phone call and within an hour my Momma's heart would be crushed. No, I'm not going to be a Grandma again...that's not really a crushing of the heart anyway, that's just a temporary shock of the heart until the blessing arrives.
I'm not going to share the news my husband and I received as God has made it clear this is to stay between us, but I will ask for prayer for our family. Not trying to be dramatic, just obedient to the Lord.
Over the last 48 hours I have cried until I couldn't squeeze another tear out.
I have called out to Jesus. Over and over and over again.
I have come together in prayer with my husband, something we don't ever do consistently.
I have had my face in God's Word instead of riding the coat tails of verses I know are somewhere in the Bible. I have searched His Word. I have begged Him to give me something.
And then something major happened.
My heart tilted.
It is easy to get all dressed up and throw yourself a pity party, but I refuse.
I have ripped up the invitations and am fully going to rely on the Lord.
I have to.
We are told that our enemy, the devil, is prowling the earth out to kill, steal and destroy.
1 Peter 5:8
Be alert and of sober mind.
Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.
As a believer, why would I take that lightly?
Why do I think that the "someone" God is referring to isn't me, my husband or my kids?
If I was told there was a lion prowling around in my neighborhood I would never send my kids outside to play. They'd be close to me under my protection. I'd do anything to protect my loved ones. Anything.
I'll be honest here, when I pray for my kids, I often do it on my way to work and it's usually a group prayer.
Because I'm that busy.
"Dear Lord. Please help Alyssa, Aaron & Alivia to have a good day. Amen"
Why is my hearts' desire for my children to have a "good day"?
HOW insulting to the Righteous Father Who sits upon the throne to hear such a pathetic prayer if it can even be called that, come from my lips. I give telemarketers more respect and time then I do my Savior.
How dare I insult the King of all Kings!
So am I going to up my prayer time as a New Year's Resolution?
No, because that's just a plan of failure for me.
I'm going to change my prayer life and make it a priority to spend time with God because my life as well as my family's life is on the line.
Satan wants us.
If you are a believer of Christ Jesus, you also are on Satan's most wanted list.
It is time to put on the full armor of God and let God fight the battles that will be coming your way.
Not if they'll come, when.
After a tough couple of years of learning how to rely on Jesus for what I thought was everything, it is clear to me that I missed the importance of putting on the full armor of God, praying and being in His Word...daily!
I missed it the first, second and hundredth time around, but these last 48 hours, I got it.
I need Jesus in EVERY area of my life. Big and small, He wants to be the center our entire lives.
Jesus, I need You.
I trust You and I will not focus on the circumstance in front of us right now, but instead focus on YOU.
You are so much bigger than anything Satan could ever come up with and in You we believe.
I can't wait to see what You're going to do and I promise to stay out of your way, no matter how long it takes for You to have your way.
To You be the glory.
Between Genesis and Revelation it is not one time recorded that You ever came out the loser of any battle.
As a couple, Gene and I seek You, love You and totally trust You with our lives and our children's.
And while you fight the battle on our behalf, we will do our part of sending forth our praises and prayers and trust in You.
I want to encourage you that no matter what. Let me say that again..NO. MATTER. WHAT. God is worth trusting. He is worth seeking. You will not be disappointed as you learn to trust in your Creator.
He may not answer prayers or do things the way you would, but He knows what He is doing and if you hang in there and trust Him, His plans will be revealed and you'll find yourself in awe.
I don't know what hit you in the year of 2010, perhaps...
Home foreclosed on
Surgeries...overall health issues
Death of a child or other loved one
Having a cheating spouse
Being the cheating spouse
Loneliness in being Single
Loneliness in being Married
you have gone through, know that IF you profess Jesus as your Savior and IF you cooperate with Him and trust Him even when it doesn't look like He knows what He's doing,
He WILL come through in His holy timing like no other can.
Put on the full armor of God.
For if you believe in Jesus, you are on Satan's Most Wanted List.
I love You Jesus.